blue october

유희열의 음악 세계란 프로그램에서 60을 바라보는 가수 인순이가 샤이니의 '링딩동'이란 노래를 춤과 함께 부른 것을 봤다. 나이가 무색하게 힘있는 댄스, 그러면서도 라이브로 힘있게 부르는 노래까지.
아이돌 그룹의 시간 떼우기용 노래가 새롭게 들린 경험.

하지만 아무리 훌륭한 가창력과 춤으로 포장해도 조악한 가사까지 바뀌는건 아니니...
결코 좋은 노래라는 생각은 들지 않았다.

Babe, 네게 반해버린 내게 왜 이래. 두렵다고 물러서지 말고..
그냥 내게 맡겨봐라 어때? my lady.

링딩동, 링딩동, 링 디기 디기 디기 딩딩딩

Butterfly! 너를 만난 첫 순간, 눈이 번쩍 머린 Stop 벨이 딩동 울렸어.

난 말야, 멋진 놈, 착한 놈, 그런 놈은 아니지만 나름대로 괜찮은 bad boy-
너는 마치 butterfly. 너무 약해 빠졌어. 너무 순해 빠졌어. 널 곁에 둬야겠어.
더는 걱정 마. 걱정 마. 나만 믿어보면 되잖아. 니가 너무 맘에 들어 놓칠 수 없는 걸.

2010년 말의 세시봉 열풍엔 흘러간 추억 탓도 있겠지만,
마치 시처럼 표현력이 돋보이는 가사들에 대한 향수도 작용한 것이 아닐까 싶다.

아직도 소위 언더그라운드라고 불리는 가수들에게서 해학, 풍자, 운율을 고려한 표현 등과 같은 가사들을 종종 만날 수는 있는거 같다,
하지만, 적어도 TV에 소개되는 오버그라운드 가수들에게서 더 이상 한번 더 생각할 만한 가사를
기대하기 힘들게 된거 같다.

미국 밴드 Blue october도 가사가 곡의 가치를 더 높여주는 밴드이다.
twilight 시리즈 작가인 meyer가 극찬했다던가....
적어도 가사에 있어서만은 눈에 띄는 밴드 중 하나라고 봐도 될 듯.
메시지 뿐이 아니라 표현력, 운율까지...



Hate me

Hi Justin! This is your mother..I was just calling to see how you were doing. You sounded really uptight last night, it made me a little nervous, and well it made me nervous that it sounded like you were nervous too.I just want to make sure you are really okay and wanted to see if you were checking in on your medication too. You know I love ya!Take care honey I know you`re under a lot of pressure. See ya. Bye Bye!

안녕 저스틴. 엄마야.
어떻게 지내나 싶어 그냥 전화해 봤어. 어젯밤엔 진짜 긴장한거 같아서 좀 불안했어.
그냥 너도 불안한거 같이 들려서 내가 불안했던 거지.
그저 네가 괜찮은지 확인하고 싶고 약도 잘 챙겨먹는지 알고 싶었어.
내가 사랑하는지 알지.
몸 조심하고 네가 얼마나 압박을 받는지도 안다 아들.
또보자, 바이 바이.

I have to block out thoughts of you, so I don`t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I`m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There`s a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you, Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face
And will you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted space
당신 생각을 차단해야 했죠, 그래야만 제 정신을 차릴수 있으니
내 침대에 애를 놔두고도 그 생각이 바퀴벌레처럼 기어다녔죠
내가 혼자라는 걸 깨닫게 하는 녹음 테잎을 떨어뜨리고
내 머리 속에서 영화가 나오는데 집에서 하는 포르노 같이
내 자존심에 불이 났고, 불안감이 머리에서 넘쳤죠
그 것들은 모두 내가 당신을 원한다는 거였죠. 다시 전화해줄수 없나요?
날 사랑한다고 더이상 말할수 없나요 내 앞에서요
내게 다시 다가와 줄수 없나요, (우리 사이에) 공간을 원했던건 나였는데

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn`t do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you
오늘 날 미워하세요
내일도 날 미워해요
내가 해드리지 못한 모든것에 대해 날 미워해요
날 미워하세요, 견디기 힘들 만큼으로요
날 미워하세요 그래야 당신에게 진짜 좋은게 뭔지 결국 알게될테니

I`m sober now for 3 whole months, it`s one accomplishment that you helped me with.
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing that I won`t touch again.
In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I`ll drive so fucking far away that I`ll never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind
난 지난 석달 내내 (약물없이) 깨어있어요. 당신이 날 도와줘서 해낸 것 중 하나
항상 우리를 갈라놨던 건 내가 더이상 가까이 하지 않으려 해서였죠
내 구역질 나는 방법으로 고맙다고 하고 싶네요 밤 늦도록 내 머리가 똑바로 있게 받쳐준거
내 자신의 분노와 싸우느라 정신없을때면, 싸움을 멈추게 하려 했었죠
자살할 만큼의 미움과 같은거에 대한 내 꼬인 의견에도 의심하지 않았죠
받아들이기 어려울 정도인데도 제가 자기 칭찬을 하게 해주셨어요
그래서 내 생각도 나지 못하게 엄청 멀리 가버릴 께요
날 남겨두려고  뭐가 있던 속에 있는 맘대로 해요


Hate me today.
Hate me tomorrow.
Hate me for all the things I didn`t do for you.
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow.
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you.

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I have made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling "Make it go away!"
Just make her smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered "How can you do this to me?"
슬픈 마음으로 안녕이라고 하고 손 흔들께요
내가 저지른 모든 실수의 그림자를 길에 버리고
어른이 되 본 적도 없는 어린애처럼
당신의 푸른 눈을 보고 내 손으로 그 얼굴을 들기 전까지는..
그러고는 난 쓰러져서 소리쳐요 "다 지나가버려!"
그 미소가 돌아와 예전처럼 빛나게 할수만 있다면
그리고는 이렇게 속삭이게 할수만 있다면 "네가 어떻게 나에게 이럴수 있니"

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn`t do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you
...for you...for you...for you



Into the ocean

I`m just a normal boy
That sank when I fell overboard
My ship would leave the country
But I`d rather swim ashore


Without a life that`s sadly stuck again
Wish I was much more masculine
Maybe then I could learn to swim
Like `fourteen miles away`

You`re floating up and down
I spin, colliding into sound
Like whales beneath me diving down
I`m sinking to the bottom of my
Everything that freaks me out
The lighthouse beam has just run out
I`m cold as cold as cold can be
be

I want to swim away but don`t know how
Sometimes it feels just like I`m falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion
Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down
Let the rain come down

Where is the coastguard
I keep looking each direction
For a spotlight, give me something
I need something for protection
Maybe flotsam junk will do just fine
The jets, I`m sunk, I`m left behind
I`m treading for my life believe me
(How can I keep up this breathing)

Not knowing how to think
I scream aloud, begin to sink
My legs and arms are broken down
With envy for the solid ground
I`m reaching for the life within me
How can one man stop his ending
I thought of just your face
Relaxed, and floated into space

I want to swim away but don`t know how
Sometimes it feels just like I`m falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion
Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down
Let the rain come down
Let the rain come down

Now waking to the sun
I calculate what I had done
Like jumping from the bow (yeah)
Just to prove I knew how (yeah)
It`s midnight`s late reminder of
The loss of her, the one I love
My will to quickly end it all
So thought no end my need to fall

Into the ocean, end it all
Into the ocean, end it all
Into the ocean, end it all
into the ocean...end it all

[Zayra]
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)

I want to swim away but don`t know how
Sometimes it feels just like I`m falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion (yeah)
Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down
Let the rain come down
Let the rain come down

Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
(In to space)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
(I thought of just your face)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)



Calling you

Theres something that i cant quite explain
i`m so in love with you
you`ll never take that away

and if i said a hundred times before
expect a thousand more
you never take that away

well expect me to be
calling you to see
if you`re ok when i`m not around
asking if you love me
i love the way you make it sound
calling you to see
do i try too hard to make you smile
to make a smile


well i will keep calling you to see
if you`re sleepin are you dreamin and
if you`re dreamin are you dreamin of me
i cant believe
you actually picked...me

i thought that the world had lost its sway
(its so hard sometimes)
then i fell in love with you
(then came you)
and you took that away
(its not so difficult, the world is not so difficult)
you take away the old
show me the new
and i feel like i can fly
when i stand next to you
so what if I`m on this phone
a hundred miles from home
i take the words you gave
and send them back to you

i only want to see
if you`re ok when i`m not around
asking if you love me
i love the way you make it sound
calling you to see
do i try too hard to make you smile
to make a smile

i will keep calling you to see
if you`re sleepin are you dreamin and
if you`re dreamin are you dreamin of me
i cant believe
you actually picked...me

well i will keep calling you to see
if you`re sleepin are you dreamin and
if you`re dreamin are you dreamin of me
i cant believe
you actually picked...me

i will keep calling you to see
if you`re sleepin are you dreamin and
if you`re dreamin are you dreamin of me
i cant believe
you actually picked...me